Discover your heart…or lose it forever

By Demon Faith

 

 

EMAIL: rosabeth@hotmail.com

CATEGORY: S/D, Epilogue: Entity

SPOILERS: Big ones for Entity

SEASON/SEQUEL: Directly after Entity

RATING: PG

CONTENT WARNINGS: Heavy Angst (ie Tissue material!)

SUMMARY: The title says it all!

DISCLAIMER: I do not own Stargate, Stargate owns me

AUTHOR’S NOTES: Double Jeopardy was delayed, so here are Entity spoilers. There was the commonly misinterpreted S/J, which is really JUL, in this episode, so I thought I’d write heavy fic based on that.

 

 

Jack was Daniel’s worst enemy.

 

He loathed him, he despised him, for he had taken the most precious thing in Daniel’s heart. Or, at least, if it had not already been done, it was now. Jack was taking Sam.

 

Daniel had seen the looks, the gestures, the hovering by her bedside, while he, Daniel, was trapped, vibrating within himself, not knowing what to do, how to cope, where his life would be, and then, as she lay there, dead, dying, he saw something in Jack’s face something he had hoped to never see.

 

And the jealousy rose in him like a flame, consuming him with hatred, fire burning with anger.

 

He turned on his heel and strode out, heading for his office, knowing that at some point Jack would come to him, trying to tell him of his victory.

Daniel collected some things together, then prepared to leave. But, someone stood in his path.

 

“Hey Danny! That was a close one!”

Daniel glared sharply at Jack, eyes boring into him, and Jack stepped back.

 

“Hey! What’s with you?”

 

Daniel pushed past him and strode through the corridor, not turning back once. Until someone turned it for him.

 

“Whoa, slow down. What’s it all about?”

Daniel couldn’t contain himself any longer. He lashed out, pushing Jack against the wall and holding him there.

 

“You have taken her away from me. I can never forgive you for that.”

Daniel’s voice cracked, and he let go of Jack, and fled towards the lift, wiping his eyes with his sleeve.

 

“Daniel, wait!”

 

Daniel strode on, and took the lift to the surface. He got into his car and he drove. He drove so fast, to get away from the truth that was haunting him, plaguing him. He thought he had meant something to her. Obviously, he was wrong. He got into the house and he bolted the door behind him. He ran and sat on the sofa, huddled into the arm and sobbed, openly crying because of what he had lost.

 

The phone rang, Daniel unplugged it.

 

The doorbell buzzed continually, Daniel ignored it.

 

Daniel flicked through the television channels during the incessant knocking that plagued his door.

 

Then, he knew he had to concentrate something. He sat down at his computer, stared blankly at the screen for a minute and then dialled up the Internet.

Suddenly, a Messenger window opened onto his screen.

 

‘Daniel?’ it said.

 

Sam, he thought. Daniel blinked away tears, closed down the window and disconnected the computer. Slowly, he slid onto his arms and just lay there for a minute.

 

“I’ve lost her,” he whispered.